Please help me. need advice..?

Find a support group for abuse victims. You need people you can lean on. Don't know where you live but if it is in the US get a educational loan. You don't have to start paying them back until you graduate and then it is at a very low interest rate. Lots of people find jobs that are in walking distance or a short bus ride. Check out grocery stores for example. Check on campus for mental health professionals. Some colleges have these services~